Once you've tasted the real deal, you'll never settle for any form of substitutes... Ever again...

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ok. start with pictures of Tze's birthday last saturday.

the birthday boy got us to play a little fooseball. and i found out apparently i'm not very good at it. should just stick to football. see their smiles, they're all mocking me.

in the end just let the two pros play among themselves.
you know the meaning of dulan? actually more of just pwned.

the much awaited cake FINALLY appeared.

julia and her much-hyped and over-rated "sexy back"

and i finally managed to get the birthday boy to take a picture with me.

had a jamming session with brendan. almost tempted to buy a PS3 for myself.

grace. the first to turn 21. emily's next.

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anyway, the whole planning for the whole of the week fell through. we ended up having breakfast at changi airport yesterday when derrick kicked my left heel while we were rollerbalding and i had a bad fall. resulting in me having a minor twisted ankle and having to walk around with a limp for the rest of the day.

after which, went to meet up with Evon for a day out.

my beautiful $700 bike.

had to remove the front mudguard after i realise that it causes VERY DEEP cuts on the tyres. that was pure heartache.

my new eight-wheeled beauty. costs almost a good $500.

just a random picture that i took while waiting for Evon.

wanted to try out the Singapore Flyer but the queue was too long and we might be late for our movie. so just went to have dinner at Popeye's. There's a Popeye restaurant at Singapore Flyer!

nice blue-ish tint. should have used macro mode.

as the day draws nearer, i get more and more excited.

and today julia made me feel very very guilty. i though i wasnt really doing anything wrong, since the same was done to me quite a number of times.

oh well.

i cant wait for saturday to come.

life is almost al about counting down to something.

Today something amazing happened.

i lost my diary.

and therefore, i sort of lost track with all my appointments. which is kind of good because it somehow signifies a brand new start for me.

forget my past and forget how my future's supposed to be.

i get to start afresh.

and so at 7.12pm today, i got my first break.

i must plan something amazing for next saturday.

i mustered as much courage as i could and now that i've got what i yearned for, time to plan for my big break.

failure is definitely not an option.

i hope this shall be a brand new, beautiful beginning!

:-)

and so therefore have changed my background music to "First Date" by Blink-182.

As the saying goes, "Time to rock n roll!"

oh no, HELL NO!

my $55 mizuno bag. i bought it less than a week ago. and less than a week later, some kid yanked off the zipper and now it's as good as spoilt.

and so that's why i'm so pissed last saturday.

Manfred Mann "Do Wah Diddy Diddy"

There she was just a-walkin' down the street,
singin' "Do wah diddy diddy dum diddy do"
Snappin' her fingers and shufflin' her feet,
singin' "Do wah diddy diddy dum diddy do"

She looked good, looked good,
she looked fine, looked fine
She looked good, she looked fine
AND I NEARLY LOST MY MIND!

i'm so crazy that i went for 2hrs of non-stop blading.

but i love it.

and i had a nightmare while i was alking around.

didnt know it was possible to have a nightmare when you're wide awake. at least what happened felt like a nightmare.

i was just contemplating certain possibilities of the current situation and my brain chanced upon certain scenarios that werent exactly to be of my liking.

and speaking of this particular scenario, i even had two dreams about it. one bad and one good.

the bad one was so bad that i was shocked awake.

the good one was so good that i wish i never had to wake up and just continue living in that dream.

goes to show how serious i am about this little issue.

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i dont need you to make any sacrifices for me.

we dont know each other well enough for any one of us to make sacrifices for each other. it's the thought that counts, so i'll just thank you for the goodwill.

you probably noticed how i refused to cooperate with anything that you propose and i'm being a difficult person.

like what i chatted with julia about:

play me around too much and i'll just end up not giving a **** about you.

so therefore, "it's the thought that counts"

so thank you again.

not interested, therefore my "dont know, dont care" mentality.

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i'm not a fan of being emo,

but i'm currently preparing myself for a roller-coaster ride of emotions.

:-)

let the show begin!

i'm pissed.

so i'm just gonna let it out first.

他妈的王八蛋！他妈的混帐！我有那种被耍得团团转的感觉！

like what i mentioned in my earlier psot.

"要是跟一个人出去这么困难的话，我想那就算了吧，免得大家困在一个那么尴尬的场面，多么不自在。"

i'm a simple person. so please dont complicate my life.

it's bad enough that there is a grey area in our lives. please dont go on and add different hues of grey.


but at least i have something to look forward to everyday. i'm not sure how long it can last, i'm savouring every single moment of it.

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why dont you keep the drink and just give me the money?

it's a lot more practical that way!

:-)

"Whenever you feel down, just remember that you're perfect because God makes no mistakes."

i think i know why i've been pretty down with my luck for the past few years. like in terms of academics, finance, relationship, etc etc.

when i was in sec2, somebody pissed me off so much that i went to the toilet and i punched the mirror on the wall and it cracked.

so when you break a mirror you're supposed to have 7 years of bad luck right?

well, so far 7 years have passed and recently things are starting to look up. so i guess i'm back on track?

i know it's just plain irresponsible to blame everything on luck.
:-)

i've decided that i cant simply let things run by itself, i have to take a step out at times. although what i really pissed myself off was playing my trump card so damned EARLY into the game and i still dare to play some hard-sell.

i might be better off making some cold calls.

but anyway, it was another small tiny step for me.

one baby step at a time, but not too small either, for time isnt on my side.

"Time is luck; you run out of time, you'll run out of luck."

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my goodness.

serene was trying to HIT on me for the WHOLE DAY yesterday.

scary. real scary.

and the more i try to avoid, the more she tried to hit one me.

arrghh

i feel so disgusted. good thing yesterday's my last lesson. at least i dont have to see her so often.

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spent close to $500 yesterday buying my first pair of rollerblades.

i'd say it's worth the buy. cant wait for the weekends to come again. time to bring my eight-wheeled baby out for a spin!

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to zel: gee. thanks, sometimes i feel more of 61 than 21.

to riley: yep. currently working. if you all got go out as a group or something must jio leh. my social circle's about the size of this fullstop. :-P

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"It was a subtle kiss that blew my mind apart."

it's been a pretty cool day. thanks to everyone who remembered my birthday..

received quite a lot surprises.

but why do people put so much focus on 21? because it's the age you can watch r21 show? because you are legally bound to the society?

nah.

not going that deep.

R asked me to do something special for W. i'm not being selfish, but i'm not getting a single shred of recognition.

and sad to say, now i want out.

i'm too nice a guy, quick to promise favours.

mental note to myself to be less nice in the future.

i'm not being selfish, i'm just thinking for myself. we all do that all the time.

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there's a reason why i MIA myself from P for like more than a year. i guess i'm lucky i got a second opinion to keep me informed that i was just thinking too much and that P wasnt being rude.

but then again.

要是跟一个人出去这么困难的话，我想那就算了吧，免得大家困在一个那么尴尬的场面，多么不自在。

i'm a simple person. please dont make my life difficult..

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derrick asked me to go join the next vertical challenge with him.

i gave him the finger.

:-)