we were supposed to celebrate something happy together. but things didnt turn out the way i wanted it to be. or at least wished/hoped it would be.


i once heard of the saying: "Attitude problem is directly proportional to personal perception."

i wonder if Big V is really that stupid. i dont feel like a sleuth. but i was able to see what Big V was up to. nothing illegal has been committed but yet Big V has chosen to give me lies after lies.

so many times in a row. this partnership is starting to fray at the ends, i suspect.

i want to confront Big V but somehow, it just doesnt feel right.

sigh...


how do one even begin to describe this sense of hopeless-ness and helpless-ness?

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before, i used to get jealous when i see couples..

now i still get jealous when i see couples..

damn i just want to kill them all..